Limbo

Our current helper and yaya have been around for almost a month and I’m getting comfortable with them. What I really feel right now is that I need to get a job. I guess it was never my dream to become a stay at home mom. I can see that I could enjoy this lifestyle where you just prepare everything for the family but I don’t like being dependent on my hubby. Nevermind that my job wasn’t as spectacular as I’d hope it would be. It was something I enjoyed a lot and it gave me spending money. I guess it is like my pride telling me that I can do more than just stay at home.

When I was at my 9th month and we still didn’t have a yaya or maid I didn’t hesitate to resign. Hubby and I were used to fending for ourselves with me cooking and cleaning except for the bathroom which was hubby’s specialty. However I did my research and knew that I would be courting post partum depression if I tried to do everything and take care of the baby.

I do not regret any decision I made at all. However right now I am wondering if I just killed my career? I’ve contacted numerous headhunters and recruitment firms. I’m constantly checking jobstreet and jobsdb but nada. I’ve been to several job interviews where hubby tells me that I can do better so I don’t pursue them. I’ve had a VP tell me that I’m overqualified. Maybe I should swallow my pride and work for someone who is more junior than me? I think it would just grate on me and the resentment would build up. Sigh.

What if I am supposed to be a stay at home mom? Is it destiny? I don’t think so. I think we make our own destiny. I am in this situation right now because of the decision I made.  The only thing I can do right now is to keep on trying and play the waiting game.  Perhaps when the economy picks up I will have an easier time finding a job.

Agency to the rescue

After one month of trying to contact maids who were on vacation in the province and asking everyone for referrals for maids or yayas we have finally succumbed to hiring from an agency. The agency we went to is one that a friend’s family uses regularly so we felt a bit ok with it.

The funny thing is the maid and yaya started last Sunday but yesterday wanted to leave us na. The yaya couldn’t handle my 8 month old while the maid felt that there was too much laundry. This is laundry for me, my hubby and our baby ha. Well, what can I do? At least nagpaalam sila ng maayos. Plus, they’re from an agency so the agency replaced them that same day. So now I have a yaya and maid who started yesterday.

Baby J is getting used to his new yaya. I am more comfortable with her. She’s much older than the first one the agency sent and more experienced. However Baby J is in that stranger anxiety stage. So whenever he doesn’t see me, he cries like he is panicking. So I have to show him that yes I am around.

New maid is also seemingly better. She’s supposed to be a good cook so we’ll see tonight if her adobo is up to scratch.

Now I have to train them to our routine and I really hope they stick around longer than the previous ones.